"And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus." Phil.4:7
We just spent a lovely Easter weekend with our 6 children and 22 grandchildren. Heather and Nate drove the 17 hours to spent 4 days here with us and left early Tuesday morning. Turns out it was perfect timing for them to be here now along with all the siblings. After my doctor appointment last week, it was decided that my case needed to go before the Tumor Review Board made up of oncologist, radiologist, and gynecological surgeons. Board meets one day a week and I needed a doctor to be my advocate. Providentially, I was able to get an appointment with a Stanford surgeon and one of his specialties is Vulvar Cancer, a rare form of cancer that I have been diagnosed with. After reviewing the pet scan from the week before, the doctor was pretty certain, based on the the lack of responsiveness to all treatment thus far, that they could do no more. He will go to the Board Meeting on Friday and listen to all opinions. The problem is the extensiveness of tumor and what it would entail. I was so thankful to go back to Heather and Nate's where the kids had already gathered so they could be told all together. Needless to say, the news was shocking to my kids but as I told them, there are no surprises to God and He has ordained all things for His good purposes. It makes no sense to us and may never this side of heaven but we all love Jesus and know that all He does is for our good and we will continue to trust and obey.
Prayer requests:
- Pray for the parents as they share this news with their children. Give them wisdom, clarity of thought and simplicity of words based on Scripture
- Pray for me and Bill and we prepare for separation after 41 years.
- Pray for me to use the time I have left wisely and be quick to repent when I fall into self pity, etc. I am not fearful of dying but the thought of not seeing grand kids grow up can make me sad. God knows this and I must remain faithful to repent quicky and trust in His great love for me and my family.
- Pray for financial needs to be met during this season.
Praise!
- I am overcome with gratitude for my 6 faithful children and their families. This gives me great peace during this time
- Praise for a faithful church.
- Thankful for the many friends and strangers who have contributed to my medical fund and who have sent notes of encouragement filled with Scripture to bring a healing balm.